2013年12月19日 星期四

love- perfect but fragile

“It reminds me of that old joke- you know, a guy walks into a psychiatrist's office and says, hey doc, my brother's crazy! He thinks he's a chicken. Then the doc says, why don't you turn him in? Then the guy says, I would but I need the eggs. I guess that's how I feel about relationships. They're totally crazy, irrational, and absurd, but we keep going through it because we need the eggs.”


起初我對這段文字毫無頭緒,後來找到一個快狠準的解畫:Egg is your irrational expectation over the crazy relationship. The story is good, and I really love the way Annie and Alvy were still together. Especially the scenes at the beginning that, Annie and Alvy went through their pass relationships and how they laugh at the old memories together(though they actually just happened a few months ago!) I am not acknowledgeable to understand most of his jokes but it doesnt make a problem to go through the whole movie happily and smoothly.

Maybe I am still too young when comparing with Woody Allen, I think my love life ends too soon. I want to try more and more and more and there shouldnt be an end right? What's the point of getting married? Marriage shouldnt be a sign of ‘stop to be curious about other males/females’.(Theres never 100% security and promising in a relationship isnt it?) Or maybe there's shouldnt a thing called marriage, it certainly drives people crazy, as some people expect marriage is a life-time promise AS they clearly understand that, relationship/lovelife wouldnt exist forever and ever. Well maybe this is the 'egg' that Alvy mentioned at the end of the movie.

When I woke up this morning, the last few scenes of the movie suddenly came up to my mind. Annie and Alvy were sitting face to face and talking together inside a restaurant, and they were only friends in that scene. I started to realise everything has gone too fast... my memories flash back and they seems just happened a few weeks ago——the physical time hasn't passed too soon but the distance, the distance......


2013年12月8日 星期日

Fight Club 頓時成為我最喜愛電影之一:電影包含的意志太強大了。

由兩個極端人格分別對社會資本主義和共產主義抗衡。把慣性的自我保護由自毀性的極度痛楚徹底摧毀,讓痛楚喚醒生命本能從而作出本能反擊;從瘋狂的物質生活中抽身,來個破釜沈舟一拍兩散——我愛煞這種極端:要麼完全抽離,要麼完全介入。

NARRATOR的失眠代表了現代人的精神狀態:不喜歡也不會反抗;遇到危險就像受驚的小動物縮在洞穴裡不敢移動;遇上侵略只要生命還保持安全就甘心啞忍。壓抑成為日常生活的課題。

昨天跟一位摯友談了很多。說起 有人說過,人生遇上的每一個人都帶著我們要學習的課題。他問 他教了我甚麼。我想 要等那個人消失了,才會知道。我曾遇過的某幾個人,花了不少時間把我從活潑無憂變成相對地壓抑沈默。消沈時我間中懷念過去的自己,不過當我在生活的群體裡間中會看到那些過去的我時,現在的我會暗地慶幸自己的改變。

有人說過,裝睡的人最難叫醒。我問他 人有了信仰,是否會較踏實——其實我只是在問自己罷了。之前另一位摯友跟我說過,他覺得這個世界不再真實——也許就是再也找不到能相信的理由。最近,我認為造夢的說法最能形容我的狀態:我的感情生活,我的工作,我的習性。我開始習慣愛理不理,我開始對不喜歡的工作麻目,我繼續甚至增加在街上流連遊車河的時間及次數。越壓抑,越討厭自己對自己的不仁。

2013年11月7日 星期四

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人被賦予了自由意志,可由此來選擇善惡。只能行善或者只能作惡的人,就成了發條橘子 ── 也就是說,他外表是有機物,具有可愛的色彩與汁液,實際上僅僅是發條玩具,由著上帝、魔鬼或無所不能的國家﹝它日益取代了前兩者﹞操縱。徹底善與徹底惡一樣沒有人性,重要的是道德選擇權。惡必須與善共存,以便道德選擇權的行使。
   ─── 安東尼吉伯斯
主角亞歷克斯從無惡不作,後來「被變成」一個邪惡思想依舊,卻對所有惡行無力反抗的怪物── 他確實是「物」。在行為治療裡,醫生(研究人員也許更為貼切)對亞歷克斯使用最簡單的古典制約來改變他的行為。這就是我們常說的「洗腦」吧。

洗腦也是一種暴力。當人不能根據思想自由作出行為選擇,他跟一個物件沒大差異。宗教、道德、社會規範甚至政府機制教育制度商業市場,改變/灌輸我們對某些事物的本能反應。洗腦的條子無處不在,有時被硬生生加了幾個發條上了鏈也渾然不覺。

如果說善與惡是互相對立,宗教和科學的敵對關係在發條橙的世界裡更是互不相容。好與壞、善與惡從不是對立,而是一個選擇。

「...在紛紜擾攘的時代裡,沒有信仰的人是難以忍受任何束縛的,大家都喜歡藉著知識以外的神秘力量的探索來滿足自己內心某種曖昧的渴望。」我好喜歡<浮士德>電影裡面現實與夢境交錯的和諧,我們用我們的眼光去看那個世界裡面發生的事彷彿所有事都離奇古怪,但活在那個世界裡的人早已習以為常有甚麼好奇怪。

我們在我們的世界裡從小就被教授很多事情很多數據,常識從來不是常識。當我開始脫離這個世界的固有思想,就發覺自己越來越抗拒這裡。有一天一位outsider出現在我的世界裡,我的世界從此改變。我明白1Q84裡的貓城、青豆與小小人的世界,也許很多作家都透過作品訴說同一個想法:這個世界在發瘋。雖然物理上跟大家身處同一空間裡,但大家的思想世界卻是截然不同。

人的思想均具有侵略性,以自我為中心,合作互相包容是為了配合大環境的改變,共同達成各種目的。發條橙裡的世界 善與惡均是極端地存在。對與錯的價值觀是從教育中學習得來。很多時候我對很多事情都抱觀望態度,因為獲得經過選擇的資訊的我們,幾乎都是被利用為政治把戲的棋子。

要麼完全拒絕,要麼完全介入。

2013年8月28日 星期三

Flâneur

The project is now available online (HKBUtube), feel free to take a look

 http://hkbutube.lib.hkbu.edu.hk/sp/sp-display.php?spid=10759

Also thanks for the invitation from 10 ChanceryLane Gallery, the work is now available during 28 Aug - 21 Sep.

HKFOREWORD13
http://www.10chancerylanegallery.com/exhibitions/2013/hkforeword13/en/

2013年6月21日 星期五

Leon Levinstein

"A good photograph," he said, "will prove to the viewer how little our eyes permit us to see. Most people only see what they've always seen and what they expect to see. Whereas a photographer, if he's good, will see everything."

2013年4月20日 星期六

Content


Documentation

flâneur

Content

Starting Point
- Why the project starts (background information, what is interesting)
Observation
- Visual and onsite research (photos)
Wonder
-         Analysis base on observation, my thoughts and wonder about communication, the ownership of spaces, our identity in this city etc.
-         Research on Public Space, + public space moved into shopping malls?
-         Situationist International: Same problem happens in 60s!
-         Materialism
-         My thoughts about a 理想化 relationship between city and citizens (related to artist statement)
What can we do?
- Based on site research, unseen restriction is the focus point
- Tone and Manner: Fun and public are able to engage
- Reasons: (1) Fun and (2) Public can engage- Slightly mention public art research
- Artwork (artist) research + little analysis: How they inspires me
SOFT Revolt 軟抗爭
-         Analysis on selected site(reason)
-         Apply different objects onto sites according to each of their traits
-         The way I play- Objects: Why or why not?

Meaning of Flaneur
Reference List
Credits

Artist Statement



Artist Statement:

身處同一城市,根據能力和需要,每個人在城裡能佔的空間各有不同。而大家共同擁有的空間裡,使用限制有明顯的有隱藏的。若能隨意舒適在身處的城市停留歇息,才算是在城裡生活吧!

Every person in the city occupied their spaces depends on their ability and needs. The spaces owned by everyone, however, are full of restrictions. How great of everyone is welcomed to lie down and take a rest freely in our city.